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Blue Moon

If they say the moon is blue,
We must believe that it is true

1528 English proverb

There’s a saying that goes “once in a blue moon”. Well, that blue moon has arrived. And I feel there is no better time to restart my journal, restart my life.

Since it’s a blue moon, I feel magic in the air. I’ve always had an affinity for the moon, for the night. Since it’s the last day of August, I thought it would be a great opportunity to check in with myself and get ready for autumn.

I really wanted to have my tarot cards read. The last time I had them read was around a decade ago. I don’t think that anybody can tell your future because your future changes with every choice you make. But I do believe that the Universe can send you signals and signs to help guide your way.

Newish friends of mine read my cards and hooked me up with what I needed. A bonfire was built and I took time to make my own burning bowl ceremony. I asked the Universe to help guide my way, to bring me renewal and rejuvenation.

A traditional burning bowl ceremony takes place either New Year’s Eve or New Year’s Day. It is a fire ceremony that involves writing your intentions down on paper then offering them to the Universe. By burning the old, you make way for the new. I used to participate in a solo burning bowl but, a few years ago, I discovered that a local church has a New Year’s Eve burning bowl service. Not only do you burn away your past to make way for your future, you also write a letter to your future self that is mailed in late summer.

I received my letter a few weeks ago and I want to share what I wrote then.

It’s approaching 5;00 on New Year’s Eve and you’re in the sanctuary waiting for things to start. It’s been quite a year for you. You’ve lost and gained and made it through. Now you’re thinking about New Year’s Eve and the hype that surrounds it. You’re thinking that every ending is a beginning. You’re at the end of one thing but the beginning of something new. You’re going to become who you were born to be. I’m not going to lie. It’s going to be hard and you’ll think about quitting but you owe it to yourself to stay the course. Everyone takes your time. Now it’s time for yourself, your needs and wants. You are loved. You are loved by your friends and those family that stick around. You are loved because you love. Your love will attract love that is meant for you.

There’s a woman singing about how everything changes. There are a lot of people in your life that dislike change. But I remind you that change is growth and growth is vital for success.

There are two things that you’ll need to learn to help guide you in 2012. You’ll need to learn to let go. Let go of your fear. Let go off your anger. Let go of all the boundaries and barriers that hold you back. And you’ll need to learn to trust. Trust in yourself and trust in the Universe. You’ll make it through. I have faith in you.

That’s what I wrote myself at the beginning of the year. Until now, nobody has seen this letter nor have I talked about it. But, the tarot cards said the same thing. There is possibility there and if I trust and let go completely then everything I want and need will be in reach.

So, as I start this new journal and journey, I need to trust in myself, trust in the Universe and let go. Stop controlling. It’s going to be a challenge but I’m up for it.

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